our odds

During our very first appointment with our RE back in May, we discussed the topics that are standard in a fertility consultation:  my health history, DH's health history, the health history of our immediate families, options that are available to help us have a baby, and the associated costs of each.  It was rather uneventful...until we reached the end of our health histories (which btw, there was nothing significant other than my mother not surviving her breast cancer diagnosis).  After I had mentioned my endometriosis and laparoscopy, my previous (failed) IUI cycles with stims and clomid, and more recently, my (failed) clomid cycles with timed BD, the doctor who would become our RE said this:

'Without assisted reproductive technology of some sort, your chances of conceiving on your own are about 2% - 3% per month.'

I could have cried right then and there.  But, miraculously, I held it together.  I mean, I knew our chances were low, but I had no idea how low.  It's hard not to dwell on those numbers.  But I'm getting better.  I just keep telling myself that with your prayers, we will beat those odds.  We are already on our way as God has blessed us with supportive friends and family, a wonderful RE, and the technology to help us finally become parents.

I will not let the numbers define us!